Not the cuss word. (Get your mind out the gutter).
That "F" word was forgiveness... even did a post on my feelings about it.
I even have an "F" word for this quarter.
This quarter was an interesting time for my finances. No, there was no major blow or anything.
There was a major triumph, followed by a cancellation of said triumph... and it was just enough to blow the wind out of my sales.
Last quarter I paid off a credit card.
Not just any old credit card. It paid off the first credit card I ever I got, back when I was in college. I got it when I some 21 years ago.
It started out with a 500 dollar limit.
Can't mess that up, right? That's pretty low.
Well, over the years, the limit ballooned up to 25,000 dollars.
No, I've never kicked up past that limit.
But this was THE credit card for me. It was my crutch allll through college and grad school. I think it reached it's highest limit, some 11,000 dollars, some 12 years ago.
Some time after that, I just stopped using it. Well, used it sparingly.
And it began to go down (real slow like, though).
Thanks to my time over the past 3 years with my Financial Freedom Possee, and the things I have learned there, I am proud to say that I paid the entire balance off.
What helped is that it was converted to a low interest lockbox loan some 3 years ago. That helped me pay it off quick.
And it was great to get the following letter in the mail:
That right there? That made it real.
Made me feel real good.
But some things happened that blew the wind out of my sails.
My laptop crashed. I had to cop a new one.
I decided to buy a tablet, as I've been wanting one for years. The thing is, it's on a payment plan. True enough, it will be paid off before year's end, but it is an unwanted expense.
My cell phone broke on the day Michael Jackson died. I dropped it (for the umpteenth time) and something snapped. The thing was ringing off the hook, but there was no way to answer it, and no display.
So I bought a new one:
Very cheap indeed. But it wasn't in the budget.
These two things blew the wind out of my sails.
Let me rephrase that: I allowed these two things to blow the wind out of my sails.
And they shouldn't have. I could've easily just not bought these items. They are "luxury" items, things that I don't need to survive.
And they showed me how important getting debt free is to me. It is important, but not critically important.
I believe I was about 4 months away from being debt-free (not including the mortgage).
That has stretched out a bit.
Some think I can simply write a check and just be done. It amazes me that folks think I am swimming in cash. I think it's great. It always makes me smile.
And you can tell by the 80,000 dollar Benz sitting out in the three car garage of my 10 bedroom house. And I do wear a lot of Jimmy Choo and Versace.
Nope. I drive a little Mazda beater. My house is a VERY small 3 bedroom/2 bath. And I don't own one piece of designer clothing or shoes.
I have to put other things first before the big luxuries... like medical bills, mortgage, being of a little help to family, and just saving my money the best I can...
But right now, I have to not get the mindset of "this is impossible".
I am fighting that. I mean it is a terribly bad mental fight, it is. I have been cowering in a corner at the FFF meetings.
But the thing is, most importantly, I am AT the meetings.
For I need to hear those words... a couple of hours a month, I need to converse with my sistas about money. I always come away feeling better, and come back with a plan.
And each month, I can say that some debt is being reduced.
And that letter above... I keep it posted on the back of my bedroom door, along with other financial goals and triumphs. I like to take it down sometime and read it, feel it and hold it in my hand, as evidence of it actually being possible.
No, I am not sitting here bitching about money. There are people out there who have serious financial problems. Very serious. I would never cheapen or disrespect that by whining about money.
I am just more concerned with my mindset concerning my finances.
The way you think about things ends up determining the direction you go in life.
And right now, I have to make sure I think positively about this "F" word. Never mind looking at the issues, just think differently about the issue.
Attitude determines altitude.
Gotta think differntly about the "F" word. I MUST have the right attitude about it all.
And that is what I am determined to do and have.
So... this concludes my quarterly assessment. I've looked off and on over the past 2 weeks at things that have happened over the 2nd quarter of this year that have affected my life.
Be sure to comment on any of those posts, including this one if you want to be included in the book giveaways. This is your last chance. The winners will be announced on Monday.
Thanks for taking this journey with me: with all it's highs, lows, and in between.
I'll holla at you on Monday. I am off to enjoy my weekend.
You be sure to do the same. On purpose, of course.