Friday, July 21, 2017

Freestyles on a Friday

Yes yes, ya'll....

And you don't stop.

Because it is FRIDAY!!

But it is not payday... and that is okay. That will be next Friday.

This has been a slow week.  I'd gotten so use to getting up in the mornings and going to the hospital to be with my sister, so much so, I am in the lane heading there instead of merging into the lane that takes me to work. (My workplace was 1 mile from the workplace).

Alas she is at home and she is well. So back to my normal daily routine, which seems a bit odd.

Oh well.

I went out to lunch today to a new spot near the job called Pho King.

And it was so "phoking" good! (That's the inside joke around here, lol).

I went to lunch with my favorite Panamanian coworker. I like her. My IQ always go up a couple of points when I hang with her. And that's a good thing!

I had the egg rolls...
 And  the chicken vermecelli. There's a real vietnamese name for it. Bunt Kei something. Who knows. I speak english.
 She had the pork and shrimp version. 
And I had  a strawberry milk tea.

Tasty! Not as great as my spot, Pho Dai Lai out in Forest Park. But a great place closeby when I want some good pho or vermecelli!

That's the highlight of me week.

Oh, and signing books all week!

Yes! The paperback edition of Atlanta Noir are available two weeks early!

 I'm not sure what's up with that, but I'm not mad about it. No I am not.

My breath catches in my throat whenever I pull up Facebook or open my text messages and people have pictures of their books! WOW.

And I get to sign them. And people read my story and give me feedback on my story. How awesome is that? I LOVED-ED IT!

Get yours now!  And you know I'm going to have some giveaways. Of course! That will be soon.

Song of the Week.  I need a happy song of the week. How about that.

Joey Bada$$'s Devastated. 

I love that! That's how I feel about my first official published story! Yay!!!

Oh but wait...

Wait, wait, wait.  

I have another story coming out soon. 

We'll discuss that next week!

Ha Ha!!!

Ya'll have a good weekend!

On purpose!!

Wednesday, July 19, 2017

When Concerns Bring Changes... Hmm

Folks in my county have been in an utter uproar over the extreme hikes in our property taxes.

I have to admit the hike was out of the blue. Property taxes went up by some 50% for some folks.

My taxes increased by 800%.

Mind you, my taxes were artificially low. I went to the property tax office a few years ago to talk to the peoples about it. They assured me the taxes were correct.

This made sense, since the market was low and I lived next door to a foreclosure. Oh yeah, there was a foreclosure across the street too. And several around the neighborhood.

And that was fine, as long as they didn't circle back trying to jack me for tax money. Fine.

But enter


When I saw white folks jogging, walking their dogs, and pushing baby strollers, I thought... uh... here WE go.

I knew a hike was coming. Especially when they built that state-of-the-art park a couple of blocks from the house. And when they started pulling up asphalt and laying down beautiful bricks, bricks that you could drive over...


I didn't worry much about this hike in taxes. First of all, mine are around 20% below the expected tax value. And I can always write it off on taxes.

But I was watching the news, and people's property taxes were going from $15,000 to $30,000. That is some craziness indeed.

I spoke with one of my beloved white friends about this. "If ya'll got $15,000, ya'll can come up with the rest. Ya'll got money like that."

She set me straight on that. As always. I have my misconceptions about white folk. You know how it's shoved down our throats about how perfect their lives are. She tends to yank me back into reality.

"These white folks gonna raise hell, though," I said. "You watch. They're not going for that."

"You gonna appeal?" she asked.

"Nope. I'm gonna depend on these white folks to go crazy."

So I waited.

And then I got this in the mailbox the other day:

Look how they have "Due to concerns raised by residents..." in bold print.

You know what it is.

I know what it is.

Even that fat cat Mitch know what it is:

Look at the look on his face. He know what's up.

This is what it should've said.

I spoke on the phone with my beloved white friend. She said, "You know, I saw that on the news and thought 'LadyLee was right. They are not going for it'."

"I told you," I said. "No way."

I expect my tax notice to stay the same. But if they want to return it to last years tax, have at it. That is fine by me.

They best not upset the pioneers, these Christopher Columbus types, who have "discovered" inner city living ever again.

Believe that!

I don't have a problem with gentrification. People in general get tired of living in the suburbs. I lived in my neighborhood some 20 years ago when I was in grad school and I LOVED it. If I ever caught a house down there, I was snatching it up. I did that when prices were sky high. But at the same time, people will be priced out. I should be fine. I thought about all of this some 10  years ago when I bought my house. I am STILL mad about having to spend $2000 on a lawyer over 2 feet of fence in my backyard. But it is what it is. 

I wish a good 100 of us could get together and buy up and fix up houses in our hood.  Then this wouldn't be an issue, wouldn't it.

But here's a piece of food for thought...

Whenever I have to research a city that I am using in a story...

I notice whenever the blacks in the community try to have a nice neighborhood and businesses and schools and such, there's a bit of fire bombing, lynching, and highway building, etc...

You would be absolutely SHOCKED  at the history of some of the neighborhoods within a 5 mile radius of my house. SHOCKED.  

I'm just saying...


Tuesday, July 18, 2017

The Burn

Something I love to dabble in from time to time is loose teas.

I find some good ones in bulk here and there, and that's always a fun thing.

I've found one that is especially complex at my local Whole Foods, and I just can't get enough of it.

Cinnamon cardamon tea.

There's a lot going on there. And it looks like there's more than cinnamon and cardamon there.

It's $30 a pound, but I imagine a pound is a lot. It's lightweight, and the amount in the jar comes up to about 8$. (Yes, I went back and bought it ALL after sampling a couple of teaspoons of it my first time buying it).

I like to steep 3 teaspoons at a time.

And I don't steep for the recommended typical 5 minutes for most teas. I steep for 30 minutes.

Because I'm hardcore like that.

And then I pour it over ice. (Because you know I'm not drinking it straight).


The burn.

I can feel it burning in my chest. It's like I boiled some of the red hot candies for a LONG time.



It's akin to drinking some straight liquor.


And what's more amazing is that the two main components of this tea have some great anti-inflammatory and circulatory properties, and I can feel it.

How great is that.

But I can't get past the burn.

And you know what? I hate red hot candies...

...But this here will do just fine.

Monday, July 17, 2017

Monday Evening Blues

I am not sure why I titled the post that.

I am not blue.

It's a bit dreary here in my beloved ATL, but it's no reason to be blue. Sure it's all hot and sticky outside, and it will probably rain at any moment... yet, it's no reason to be blue.

Title just sounds good. And I am listening to a piece of garage rock/blues music, which I will post as the Song of the Week later.

So... last week was a LONG week. My sister was in the hospital and I am happy to report that she was released yesterday. GLORY!  When they said she could go home, we packed that room up SUPER fast, in 5 minutes flat.

I have been in the hospital myself for a week in the past. I can STILL remember being wheeled out the hospital in that wheelchair. I can still feel the warmth of the sun on my face. And I never knew the sun could be THAT bright.  I don't ever want to be closed up and shut in a room for that long ever again. Ever. So I could understand the glee on her face when they said she could go home. We are praying all is good now.

So I am looking forward to a normal week of going back and forth to work and meandering around the house doing chores and writing, etc. Can't wait to get back to that.

Song of the Week. So, I must say I have heard what I think is like, the best song I've heard this year.  If I don't hear another song this great this year, then I am good. I'll take this one.

Jay-Z used it as a sample on the title track of his new CD 4:44.

Well, the music of the CD is much like the cover of the CD... not much too it. Yet it had a lot going on.

You know how you wish rappers and singers would get to the point where they could make whatever the heck kind of music they want? Trendiness be damned and all of that? Well that's what Jay-Z did. He made this CD for himself. It was him looking into the mirror rapping to himself concerning all his mess in the past. And he gave good sound financial advice. I think Jay-Z and I are the same age (mid- to late 40s), and it is what I expect from someone that age. He would sound a straight up fool trying to do all this mumble rapping. Stop it, I say. He did exactly what he should have done. Alas, that is not going to excite much interest from the masses, many of us who are realizing that jibberish and nonsensical rap is the norm.  Sigh.

And for that reason alone, it is definitely worth a listen. 

The producer is a legendary one name No. ID.  I was more interested in what he was going to do with this CD. I can appreciate that it's not a commercial venture.  And I love the sample that he used for the title cut.  I thought it was an old 70s song by some soul sista, but it's not. It came out last year, and it's by a white chick from the UK.

Hannah Williams and the Affiimations - "Late Nights and Heartbreaks"

Man oh man... how GREAT is that song? I think I'm more caught up in the whole unique story line of the song. I love any singer who can tell a story in a song, and it makes me wish we had more music with some substance like that. HUMPH.

A good find. I definitely threw that on my playlist.

And if you haven't seen the video for the 4:44 JayZ song, here it is. It might disappear, so here's the youtube link.

That video was TOO much for me. Someone needs to explain that to me. What the world was up with the contemporary dancers in the video?  Wow. I have watched it a good 10 times, and to me it represents black joy and black oppression and black pain. And we have essentially become snuff film subject matter. Sigh.

Most powerful line that has stuck with me and is this week's Quote of the Week

"Hey, I'm an innocent bystander. They sayin' I drove a getaway car, but I cannot see. I'm legally blind."

There was A LOT going on in that video. I am waiting for a good think piece on it.

And that feels good to say. Not too much music makes me think these days.

That is it for ME.

I hope to post all week. I really do. This month's offerings have been quite paltry! I have to pick it up, pick it UP!

So as always, have a great week.. .On purpose!!

Thursday, July 13, 2017

Thursday Thoughts

I haven't been around much this week, as my sister has been in the hospital and I'm trying to sit with her and be an advocate and ask questions. Her Dad is there now, so I got a chance to come on in to work. I needed to sign some paperwork due on Friday. Not a problem.

But I have a brief moment right now, so I wanted to blog. 'Tis my therapy you see.

1. Ya'll got me straight lost with this whole new scandal with Trump and his son and these meetings. I am trying to listen to what's going on, but it's getting old now. And emotionally draining.

2. Thank goodness I can turn the TV off and lose myself in a good story or a good movie. That means so much to me these days.

3. It is so hot right now in the ATL. I think it's a problem because our humidity is high too. All I know is it is a long journey walking to my car in the evenings. I cannot get the AC on fast enough.

4. A squirrel stepped out the wrong way on a power line outside the workplace and caught fire and died.

5. This killed the power line and at the same time, killed all the power in one of our buildings. It was ODD walking through that building to my own... in complete quiet, with no lights working. Imagine the things going through my mind. UGH!

6. I haven't been eating right all week. And I can feel it. Double-ugh.

7. What is this I hear about Venus going to the Wimbledon Finals?? HOORAY!!

8. I thought Wimbledon was played around the 4th of July weekend. Did they move it?

9. Copies of Atlanta Noir are shipping early. Paperbacks are available now for $10 and some change. I myself am ordering a few copies. Kindle edition is available on August 1st! Get yours!!!

10.It feels strange being at work for only a couple of hours, because I have been sitting at the hospital with my sister all week. But I am paranoid. I needed to show my face at work to avoid tomfoolery with management. Sigh. Terrible I have to navigate in such a manner, but it is what it is.

That is it for my 10 Thursday Thoughts. Hopefully all goes well and my sister and we are back to our normal routines.

That would be the best outcome of all! :)

Friday, July 07, 2017

Friday Freestyles



Today went by slowly, so slowly that this 3 day workweek felt like a 5 day workweek. I have been clock watching. And if I could find a few toothpicks to hold my eyelids open, I would be good.

I wish I had a good hiding place at work where I could take a nap. But certain folk keep notes on what you're doing, i.e., don't know how to mind they own bizness.

Humph. *foot stomp*

Today is the last day of my supervisory duties. Thank goodness for that. For the most part, people have been gone, but it has thrown me off just a tad when I have to do something administrative. Just a tad.

But today is Friday. My weekend will be my weekend. I need to go to my writing group some 40 miles away, so ALREADY I'm trying to wrap my head around that. This means that I need to have my money together and my gas together TONIGHT. There is nothing worse than thinking "Oh, I'll get up early enough in the morning to stop for gas and to stop at the ATM for money."

Uh no.

Not only that, but I need to lay my clothes out and make sure I know where my keys are.

And make sure I cut up some fruit to eat for breakfast along the way.

Ay-yi-yiiii. *palm to forehead*

And I will get it done.  Despite there still being a boil water advisory in downtown ATL.

I am still all perturbed, with the unblinking stare... with the boil water face. 

Went to sleep perturbed. Woke up perturbed.

And the local news reporting is quite fleeting on the subject. They talk about it for 30 seconds, then on to the next subject. Sigh. 

I saw a coworker in the hallway this morning. She said "LadyLee, that boil water advisory is on until Monday."

Sigh. I shook my head. "I feel like we in the Color Purple!"

We both laughed. But it's not funny. She said that if I didn't lose water pressure and the water looks clear and not turbid (with particles floating in it O_o),  then  I am fine.

None of that is happening, so I guess I am okay. I'm not gonna drink that water, tho. Nope.

Enough  of my complaining. Complaining always leave me jogging in place.

Let me reverse it, as I tend to do. I give myself a moment to whine, but I best end it with the positive. 

I am thankful for bottled water to drink. I caught a sale last night at the local grocery store: 3 cases for $10. I am keeping one case and donating the other two cases to the homeless!

I am thankful for the 40 mile drive to my writing group workshop. That quiet time is some of my best prayer time!

Work was slow, but I am thankful for my good gub'ment job. Yes ma'am. Yes sir. 

Let's move on to better things! 

Quote of the Week.  I saw this quote on a random notepad around the house. I have no idea where I heard this quote, as I probably scribbled it down from something I saw on tv or heard on satellite radio. Must be a good one if I stopped to write it down in bright red ink.

"Do not surround yourself with people who feed your dysfunction." 

 That is a lofty statement. And it only makes sense if we pause to take time to understand what our personal dysfunctions are... And who takes time to do that?

Song of the Week. So SZA has a new album out. She is part of the Top Dawg Entertainment (TDE)  camp, and since that is my favorite camp/team, I make sure to listen to whatever their artists put out. SZA is their only female artist. She has put out a couple of EPs/mixtapes, but I can't too much fool with those. She is much to cerebral, and I'm not smart enough to figure out what the heck she is talking about.

But, her debut album is out, and while it is just slightly over my head (I think I need to be a woke, 20-something, feminist black college chick), there are a couple of songs I really like: "Weekend" and  "Pretty Little Birds"

I like both of those because they are well written songs. The first one is the ultimate side-chick song. She don't like being the side chick, but she is giving in to the role. Interesting, as I haven't heard that point of view in awhile. (And it's jacked up, but she sanging good, lol). The second song has good use of metaphors. How common is that these days? And I don't  even listen to current R&B. Good to find some that I can actually tolerate.

*lee turning back to ol' school, tho*

LOL. That is it for me. I am ready for the weekend like some big things are going down!!

I hope you're ready for the weekend like you have some big things going down too!

Thursday, July 06, 2017

Ten (Plus) Thursday Thoughts

This week has flown by fast. I THINK it is Thursday. So I need to post.

I think.

So here are my immediate thoughts... On a Thursday.

1. I am not sure why I haven't blogged all week.

2. I think it is because we had that long holiday weekend.

3. I STILL don't know what day it is. But maybe I will get back on track.

4. I have been straight lazy all week. Not a good way to start the second half of the year.

5. I was SHOOK this morning when my phone rang at 6:34 am. Mind you, this was the HOME phone, which never rings.

6. So I amused myself and answered it. I was READY to go off on a telemarketer. READY.

7. Turns out there is a "boil water advisory" today, and my 'hood was a part of it.

8. Wow. So let's just say, it was some craziness getting ready for work this morning. And preparing my food.

9. It all had me in my feelings, looking and feeling like this:

Lips pursed. Hard stare. All of that. 

10. Occurrences like this make me think, though. What on earth would we do if our water systems were maliciously attacked? I hate to even think about it.

11. I only have 4 gallons of clean water at the house. One of those gallons was useful this a.m. But it makes  me believe that I need more.

12. I haven't even drank any water from the water fountain at work today, and I am out of my usual stash of bottled water at work. I am feeling a tad bit dehydrated, to say the least.

13. It makes me think that I need to bust out and buy some 5 gallon jars of water for the garage. Sigh.

That's it for my Ten Plus Thursday thoughts!!

Friday, June 30, 2017

Friday Freestyles


And it is PAYDAY!

And they got my check right!

And in the bank on time!


And this Oldgirl has a 4 DAY WEEKEND on deck!

And I have all these glorious plans on my mind,like writing, going to the gym, editing, decluttering, etc.

But in reality, I will probably be like Sista Callie Jo here.

Laid out, dozing in and out. I'm not going to be showing all my business like Sista Callie tends to do, tho.


Anyway, this has been an eyebrow singeing week. Our beloved President has been on a tirade against the Morning Joe character.

I don't watch that show much, but Joe and Mika have been dragging our president for filth.


Dragging back and forth. Then back and forth again.

And I've been thinking... "Trump is gonna have a meltdown. VERY SOON."

And he did. And it was NASTY.

I will leave it up to you to go watch the YouTube clips and the tweets. It was some pure in-the-gutter nastiness. That is all I can say about it. I have NO idea how they will resolve this feud. I am wondering why we as a people are being exposed to these screeds on the regular. It is terribly exhausting on an emotional level.

But you know what I think about this all? Our president is a mirror reflection of who we are collectively as a country. It's not a great picture, but it is what it is.

It all had me a little shook, especially being a woman. When I think we have found the bottom of the barrel, I find that we haven't.

The barrel may not have a bottom, ya'll. And that is scary.

And it reminds me to examine myself and make sure I walk in kindness. And it reminds me to be thankful and full of gratitude until my cup runneth over.

And just to work on me, and to grow. Because I need to be in a good place in my emotions when I turn 70 years old. I do.

I have been thinking about that for awhile. And I will probably continue to do so.

Ya'll this is the new normal. But I don't want to be MY new personal normal. Nope.

God bless my president.

Yes this is MY president. I pay taxes. This is MY president.

I get the HARD side-eye every day when I walk into the workplace lobby. I'd always been greeted with a nice picture of a smiling Obama, but they took that picture down QUICK after Trump became president.

"Where is the picture of our new president? I need a picture of our new president on the wall!"

That is follow by a bunch of "humphs" and "giiirrrl!"


Something Funny.. So my science director came upstairs. She is puerto rican, I believe, but when I see her sometimes, I holler "'Tis the Queen! Tis the Queen of the building." *mock bowing"

This may unnerve her. I don't know. But I think she realizes that I am only trying to entertain myself.

She is a nice lady. And she is responsible for me moving to a better cubicle. If you can okay that, I AM DOWN WITH YOU! All day, er' day!

We had a fascinating convo.

"Yo, do you listen to trap music?" I aaked.

The brother who sits in a nearby cubicle fell out laughing.

Of course she had no idea what we were talking about.

"I like Old  school rap," she said.

"I do, too," I replied. "But your assignment is to listen to some trap this weekend."

She didn't reply.

And let's hope she doesn't listen to any trap. We don't need her mind polluted. NO.

No trap music today, but I have some New York Rap. Some "Eat" by Young M.A.

Young M.A. is a lesbian rapper. So I think she has that demographic on lock. I listen to her and shrug. Definitely not anything that I care to include on my playlists. Not for me, you see.  She is just a bit too hardcore for me. And I get all confused about a lady rapping about uh... strip club matters with other women. (Yes, that is a nice way to say it). So I don't listen to her that much.  I  don't even  listen to the dudes that rap about such matters.


She has one song that I like.  She is rapping for 6 minutes straight, a battle rap of sorts... no chorus, no hooks, just straight spitting bars.  And even though I am a bit O_o at some of the content, I still loved-ed  it!

I guess I just miss seeing chicks rap. But she be going up against the dudes, though. I wish Nikki Minaj would come for her. (She knows better. Humph).

"Eat" by Young M.A.  (Sorry, as usual, no clean version is available.  That use to be the norm, to have a clean version, but they have ditched that. Oh well).

I like that. That's some straight battle rap. 6.5 minutes straight. I wonder who she is talking to? Sir, don't step up unless you can match her rhyme for rhyme. It is rare to see someone do that. 

And the video is cheap and simple. It looks like "Get your camera phone. We gonna break into this abandoned apartment and shoot a video. Let's GO!"


My favorite bar occurs at the 2:01 minute mark.

Shake the haters off like a dog do when it's wet
Or run down on 'em like a dog do when it fetch.

That's a good one. And there are plenty of good ones in there.  Been a long time since  I've heard a female kick a good rap. LONG time.

So that's it for me!

I am MORE than ready for the weekend, baby!!!

I am going to have a GREAT one! On purpose!

You have one too. On purpose.

Thursday, June 29, 2017

Two Thursday Thoughts

A little something different for our Tuesday Thoughts.




Tuesday, June 27, 2017

Friday, June 23, 2017

Friday Freestyles


So glad of that. And I can't wait to bounce out and get home.

I am fully awake and ready to go, especially since it is NOT payday.

Because on Payday, the blinds of my mind are at half staff. Yes they are.

I have been doing SUPERVISORY duties this morning. And I am doing well (after only a few hours). Let's just make it through the next couple of weeks. I have also been doing a bunch of editing today, since I'm on the workplace newsletter crew. I don't mind that, since I like to write, and I need some practice editing.

What surprised me most this morning, though? The bit of sunshine that came out this morning! I was amazed because it has been super dreary all week. I know this is a light matter, because this is part of Tropical Storm Cindy (Atlanta gets the outer bands of anything that stomps its way into the Gulf), and the people on the Gulf coast have it much worse than we ever will. They are in my thoughts and prayers, for sure.

Quote of the Week. I got this from some random rap song.  I don't remember the name of the song, but I know it's by Curren$y.

"Opportunity came  knocking but I wasn't home. I was at Opportunity's house taking all the valuables out." 

I find that frickin' profound. It is chocked full of Food for thought. I will let you sit back and chew on that one.

Song of the Week.  This song has popped up on one of my playlist the past couple of days. I like it. It puts me in the mind of blogger Chele and her son. Not necessarily because of the  subject matter,  but the way the mother speaks of her love for her son in the beginning, well, after reading about Chele and her son, I can see her saying some of the same things.

So this one is for you Chele and the Prince! Domo Genesis "One Below"

That is it for my Friday Freestyles. I am not sure what the weekend brings.  I hope for it to be productive.  My toe is finally healed up, so I think I can run up on the gym.  And of course I will get some writing and reading done...  and some chores (ugh).

You have a great weekend!  On purpose!

Thursday, June 22, 2017

Ten Thursday Thoughts

Here we go with my ten Thursday Thoughts...

1.  My goodness! It is straight RAINING in the ATL.

 Wow. All this water... where the world is the sun?

 (And no, I will never be holding my hand out like that in the rain. Nope!)

2. I'm 'bout sick and tired of my salads. But I'm still getting it in, though!

3. I thought I was in charge for 1 week. But I have learned that I am in charge for TWO WEEKS. Ugh!!!! Lawd.

4. I think that means no one will be here. This will make me happy, as I will only be in charge of myself.

5. With that said, I have some supervisor tasks that I have NO idea how to get done. But that's Oldboy's fault for leaving me in charge. In other words, I hope he don't come back talking a bunch of trash. No sir. Don't do that.

6. I have never had a desire to be in management, although that has been discussed a good bit over the past 15 years.

7. Managing scientists is like managing cats. No thank you.

8. And when I think of the whole idea of management, I think about this Abraham Lincoln quote:

"Nearly all men can stand adversity, but if you want to test a man's character, give him power."

9. And since it's raining, and we won't be getting sunshine until next Tuesday.... here's a video with a whole lot of rain in it.  Ashanti's "Rain on Me"

10. One more good video with rain in the title. SWV's "Rain"

That's it for my Ten Thoughts on a Thursday!

Monday, June 19, 2017

Monday Evening Musings

Good Monday Evening.

It is hot, muggy, and rainy in my Beloved ATL. I am so glad I got my AC fixed because if not, I would be truly miserable. 

And this has been a good enough workday. That is all I can ask for.

So, I FINALLY saw the Wonder Woman movie.

Man oh man... That was a GREAT movie. Wonder Woman is a BAD sista. That is ALL.

And I saw it in 3D IMAX. That made it extra special. I felt like I was in the movie.

Wonder Woman was kicking behinds left and right, you hear me?


That was so good that I will be seeing it again. I know I missed something.

The whole history of Wonder Woman was phenomenal. I loved anything with a great background story woven into the storyline just right. And I loved seeing black women in power in the Amazon structure. AWESOME. What a powerful movie.

I will be seeing it again because there was so much going on... I KNOW I missed something. It is well worth seeing a few more times. I will definitely be buying it when I comes out on video. I may watch that just as much as I have been known to watch the

This was a pretty laid back weekend. I had much to do around the house. My goal this week is to stretch my chores out during the week. When I have done that in the past, my weekends were more relaxed.

I had a personal moment of clarity concerning Fathers day last night, and I posted about it yesterday. So I will not talk much about that again. You can go back and peruse it if you like. But it made me feel much better. I was in struggle mode and didn't even really know it.

Song of  the Week.  Hmm. Of course I want to put up some ratchetness. How about I just save that for Friday.  My morning drive music on repeat for some reason was this song. Why? I am usually a bit moody on my way to work (even though it is a short 12-15 minute commute in ATL traffic), and for this reason, this song on repeat made me happy.

I was feeling alright by the time I made it to work!


That is so good, I will post the 1 minute sequel!

Such nice songs. Ain't nobody cussing and taring up stuff.  No ratchet behavior. I know it's a remake,  but that song has to be some 15 years old. I like oldies, you see.

(But like I said, I have a piece of ratchetness laying around. I will put that up soon enough. LOL).

That is it for me. I am looking forward to a great week.

You have a great week. On purpose.

Sunday, June 18, 2017

Happy Fathers Day

Happy Fathers Day... I'm not sure how many men readers I have, but I like to acknowledge my holidays.

I was looking back at old Fathers Day posts in order to just grab up a picture for today's blog post. I am always pensive and reflective on Mothers and Fathers Day, as these have never been times of celebration, but moreso times of trepidation for me. This has been an odd weekend in that I have found my eyes welling up with tears when watching Fathers day commercials on TV. And it is mostly out of wishing I had experienced all those feelings at some time in my life, and realizing that I haven't. I am not sure why it is causing such an emotional response from me. But it is alright.

I not only came across a picture, but I also came across some thoughts about fathers day that I posted, and it was a blessing and a comfort to read them.

I want to repost those here today on this Fathers day.

(Circa Fathers Day 2014)

This morning, during my journalling time, I spent some time writing about my father. He passed back in September of last year. I have his flag. I didn't really know how to feel about that. I know I
didn't think it was right to pack it away. I thought it should go to his family, but I was urged to take it. It set atop my bookcase, wrapped in plastic wrap for a few months. My best friend LadyTee brought a shadow box for it. I didn't want to set it on my mantle, so now it sits above my kitchen cabinet.

I reconnected with my father when I was 39, after setting a "bucket list" goal to reconnect, i.e., talk to him, when I turned 30. It took 9 years to get the courage up to say something. I was afraid of this man. My mother had said some things about him when I was a child that made me afraid.  There were the occasional times I picked up the phone at my grandmother's house, and it was him calling them to check on me. But it was like talking to a mere stranger. And I had to remember not to pick up the phone when I was over there.

For years I felt so abandoned. There were those thoughts so many of times of "Maybe I would've made better decisions in my life if I had a father to guide me."  I suppose it is worse for a boy/man than a girl/woman.  But I am older now. And I am successful enough. I can't blame things on that. I can't be mad about it. I sometimes look at others with fathers and wish that I had one, just to have someone who cares. But I look at myself, and I am alright. I can't judge my life through the lens of another.

The things I learned over the past few years of rare visits with him are interesting. I looked like him. We had the same sense of humor. We were both very quiet people, and prefer our own company. I am the worst kind of loner, and so was he. I needed to know those things. I appreciate knowing those things. I thank God for allowing me some glimpses into essentially the "why" behind who I am. That means sooooo much to me.

I also recognized in my prayers this morning my Heavenly Father. I am so thankful for prayer. Rarely do I talk to people about my issues, but you best believe I talk to God about them. And I am a bit spoiled these days, because prayer is constantly answered. Even the stuff I refuse to pray about. It is so interesting how the Holy Spirit searches the deep recesses of my mind and even takes care of those issues. I feel very much special and very much taken care of and thought about.

Part of my daily prayer for the past 1.5 years, something I posted on the last day of 2014, comes to mind.

Thank you Lord for being the covering you always are.... A covering with no holes and no flaws... all seeing, and all knowing. Thank you for taking care of me in ways I know about and most importantly, in ways I don't know about.

I ponder and meditate on that. I do. And I forever grateful for it.

Those are my thoughts on this Father's Day.

This is one of those times where I am glad to have some 11 years of blog posts. I can go back and read about ME and my heart concerning things.

And that there is worth its weight in gold.


Thursday, June 15, 2017

TWO Thursday Thoughts

2 Thursday Thoughts.

(Yes. That is all I have time for).

1. My foot has FINALLY stopped hurting. Ugh

It's been close to 6 WEEKS since I stomped my toe - the toe next to the little toe - on the leg of the coffee table. It has been something else to try to get through. For a couple of weeks it was noticeably swollen before I could tell the swelling was going down.. I JUST started wearing regular sneakers on Monday. And I had a moment of trepidation about even trying to slide on a leather shoe. It feels so good to be wearing regular shoes.

I had a terrible time for a few days getting back and forth to work. It just hurt so bad to walk. My toe was swollen for 5 weeks. And I think the sprain was up to the middle part of my foot. That has never happened before.

I have always frowned when it's announced that an athlete is unable to play a game (football, basketball) because of a toe injury. My response has always been "You make 20 million dollars a year, and you are out of the game because of a hurt toe? Really?"

But now. I understand. I don't have turf toe, but any hard injury to the toe... be sure to sit down and let it heal. Please.  No sports, nothing. None of that!!  

2. My phone is on the blink. I got it wet this morning in the shower while trying to talk to my sister on speaker phone. Yes, it was stupid, but I think it was the steam, and not water.


I have a bunch of pictures that I hope I can save.  I don't know how that's going to work out.

The touchscreen isn't working.  So I am going to let it dry out in some rice overnight to see what happens.

This is bothersome because I, like most people, fool with my phone a lot. No, I'm not big on social media  (I tend to lurk and rarely post anything), but all of my phone numbers and pictures are in there. I have a few games going also. So it's going to be interesting over the next couple of days trying to figure out if I can save some things out of it. It's not a big deal to run and buy another phone. But it's a hassle. So hopefully, the phone will dry out and work properly (It's charging and I can receive calls, etc).

We will see.

But both of these "thoughts" have made me stop and ponder.

They really have.

With that said, that's it for my TWO Thursday thoughts.

Tuesday, June 13, 2017

Ten Tuesday Thoughts


On a Tuesday!

And I'm not even numbering them.

WHAT IN THE WORLD was that cabinet meeting at the White House about yesterday? Is it just me, or did it make anyone else... uncomfortable?

We need a week without any political tomfoolery. One week. I would  love that.

Congrats  to the Warriors  on winning the NBA championship.

I spent the weekend with my sister, which is always a treat.

We watched Orange is the New Black. We made it through 10 episodes. We have three more to go, but I don't know if I will watch those any time soon, as this season is not as exciting as the first couple of seasons.

It's so odd having someone in the house. My sister was up in the middle of the night, and I found myself yelling because I thought it was that girl cat Sister Callie Jo getting into something. Poor cat walked in the bedroom and was looking at me like "Why are you yelling in the middle of the night?" LOL.

I had some chicken and shrimp this weekend when she was there. The meat tasted strange after eating raw all week. I am back to raw this week. And that's a good thing.

I find it interesting that some folks don't know how to interact with me unless we are laughing or joking. (Or worse- shucking and jiving).

The kick is, I'm not always in a laughing and joking mood.

With that said, the older I get, the shorter my patience gets... with superficial relationships, that is.  I'm not sure how I feel about that, though.


Monday, June 12, 2017

Monday Musings: New Black Panther Trailer

So I had a great weekend. And I will save those thoughts for a Tuesday Thoughts post, I think.

But what had my eyes wide open this weekend was the official trailer for the Black Panther movie. I wish I would've seen it on the big screen, but I think I saw it in those Twitter streets. At any rate, it is phenomenal. Have a look.

How GREAT is that? I may have to go to some special Wednesday showing of that. Not the weekend. You know EVERY black person on the entire planet is going to be up in there.

The sad part is that it's not out until 2018.



I thought it would at least be coming out around  Christmas this year. Why must we wait so long for it?

Oh well.

I immediately recognized the background music for the trailer. It's a song from Run the Jewels 3. I'm not a big fan of the whole Run the Jewels franchise, but I actually liked the third CD in the installment. And they have a video for that song in the Black Panther trailer.

I didn't notice before, but that video is an interesting piece of social commentary. Hmm.

I like that song.  But I like several songs on the CD, which for me, makes it a good CD.

My favorite song, though, is "Hey Kids"

Now I haven't been much of a fan of Run the Jewels. This is another group favored by guys, as there are not any "girl friendly" songs (whatever that means). I've also seen this type of rap referred to as stadium rap. I suppose it will sound good in a stadium with some crowd surfing going on. (That is not my thing. Nope). And frankly, after a few songs, it's time for me to switch over to some old school R&B. LOL.

I cannot WAIT for this Black Panther movie, though. I love sci-fi,and with a gang of black folk in it, well, that is a RARITY.

2018 will be here soon enough.

Friday, June 09, 2017

Friday Freestyles... The Salad and Rain Edition


Thank goodness. It has been a LONG week.

But a good one.

This week has been a DOOZY with this presidential stuff. A doozy indeed.

Look what the NY Daily News did to MY president.


Are ya'll trying to piss him off. He's gonna break his twitter fingers fooling with ya'll!


But I am DOWN with Comey with the beloved Shawshank moment. He gave his unclassified notes to his friend to give to the press. I don't think I would've thought about that one. I think I would have sent it anonymously in the mail.

Like Old Boy did on Shawshank.


Trump said he is going to sue Comey for lying.

NOPE. No you will not, Sir. No you will not. Comey and his friend are lawyers. SURELY they thought about all this. No you will not.

This fiasco. Sheesh.

I feel like my President has fallen off his bike. Is there anyone around to help him up and send him in the right direction? If not for himself, for the country?

*longing for the days of that Obama*


This has been a RAW week. (That is probably why  the week has been too long).

My salads this week:

A kale salad
With some purple cabbage, red bell peppers, cucumbers, onions... and some other stuff. I don't remember.

Baby spring lettuce salad.... 

With nectarines, strawberries, pomegranete arils...  and some other stuff.  I don't remember.

Another kale salad!

Same as above, but with some corn thrown on top.

Super good.

I liked the kale salads best this week. So much so that I'm out of kale. I will be visiting my friendly neighborhood Whole Foods when I leave work to get more. Yes, I will.

Drink of the week! Tea!
This is a pomegrante pear green tea roobius something. I get the mixes at a tea house down at the curb market. There were real cubes of dried pear in that tea mix. I'm not sure how they did that. I don't add honey or sugar, just drink it straight on ice. Good stuff! 

With plenty of ice, of course. Ya'll know how I feel about ice.

Best find this week: Baby Avocados. I put a quarter next to one so that you can see how small they are.

These were so good. I don't do well with big avocados, as they end up going bad on me. But these are working out well. I think I will be visiting my friendly neighborhood Trader Joes to buy more.

Song of the Week. So since I've been putting up so many TRAP music videos, I thought I would put up something more a little bit more my speed.  This is a song I heard while I was doing chores last night, and it is one of my favorites.

"You Can't Stop the Rain" by Loose Ends. 

That song has to dayum near 30 years old, but how WONDERFUL is it still?

And why we don't have songs of this quality now? Why????

Oh, and since we are talking about rain, I must share another one of my all time favorite rain songs.

Milara "Go Outside in the Rain"

I not only love that song, but I LOVE the video... for all its cheesiness, or course. Yes, she is depressed and singing, yet she is still SHARP, dressed to kill.

LOVE it!

That is it for me. I am going home. I thought I had a workshop last weekend, but it turns out that it is THIS weekend. It is on blogging. I'm not interested. I've had to really think on it too. I need a good editing workshop. I guess I will wait around for that.

My sister is stopping through this weekend. I don't think she will do well with my salad fare. So I may have to pick up some chicken when I'm at the Whole Foods. Just for her. I might fall out if I try to eat some chicken right now after all this ruffage.

Or throw her my phone so that she can order something off of UberEats. I live downtown, in the hood, JUST within their delivery parameter. So that may have to do.

We shall see.

At any rate, I am fully declaring that this will be a GREAT weekend.

I am declaring that on purpose.

You have a great weekend too!!

Thursday, June 08, 2017

Ten Thursday Thoughts... the Comey Edition

Ten Thursday Thoughts

Right before I go to bed.

1. So the talk of the day has been these COMEY hearings. I was hoping he would go straight Shawshank Redemption on a mutha. (If you haven't seen that movie, this is as good a time as ever to go see it).

2. I know it's not called the Comey Hearings. But might as well have been.

3. I am still tripping. How did old boy HAND 45 the election? Then get fired? Then get threatened? And threatened in them twitter streets of all places?

4. I know that all had to make Comey cry. It would have made me cry. Then I would've gotten pissed... ninjas messing with my job and career over some BS. Humph.

5. As a matter of fact, I would've shown up to Congress in a neck brace. Then I would have passed out a couple of times during my testimony. Give er'body something to really talk about!

6. I don't know if he has another job lined up, but he's gonna score a helluva book deal. Yes indeed.

7. What did I get out of the hearings? That 45 is a LIAR. And Comey said so. Yeah. And there were receipts to prove it (that recent trump interview on NBC).

8. But we already knew that. Really, tho.

9. 45 will get out of all this. He ain't playing with us... he went and got himself a lawyer. This ius a moral issue, and not really a legal issue. And the Repubs are protecting him pretty well. And business will go on as usual. Carry on, nothing to see here.

10. You should have seen us all at work... sneaking to listen to the hearings while at the same time trying to work. HILARIOUS.

That's it for my random thoughts...

On a Thursday night.

RIGHT before bed.

And RIGHT after cleaning up the living room, kitchen and dining room.

And it only took me all of FIVE minutes.


Tuesday, June 06, 2017

Tent City Blues


There has been an ongoing protest concerning the gentrification of my neighborhood.

And some of the protesters set up a "tent city" down at the local stadium, which is about half a mile from my house.

Of  course I took pictures while waiting at the stoplight. 

They were there for some two months.  But now it has been removed.

There were complaints of  it being an eyesore and  a health hazard. I don't know how much it accomplished. I saw them on the news a few time, but let's face it... $300 million is being put into that area.

And like I said, white folk are walking up and down my street "considering" houses.

So gentrification is HERE. Nothing much that could be done about it. If we as a people were financially savvy enough to buy up our own neighborhoods, then the problems would be solved. Alas, that isn't the case.

I think a lot of people are going to be priced out. The property taxes shot up, which I expected. I opened my notice, and all I could do was LAUGH.

They are going to have to do a bit more than raising my taxes by 800% to get rid of me. And it's still lower than it was before the recession, so... whatever. I will pay it and keep it moving.

A new family moved in behind and to the left of me. They did catch me on a fence issue. Cost me $2000 on a good lawyer to take care of something as simple as.... 3 feet of fence.


That felt horrible. It was like taking a fist full of money and setting it on fire. My next door neighbor is PISSED and he is fighting it. I don't see the reason for me fighting folk and going to court over a few feet of fence line. Nope.

So I can understand the protesters taking a stand. I don't think it will help much of anything. When $$$ is involved, those without it be damned.

I hope my neighbors can afford the change... and the ride.

And not have to leave their homes.

Friday, June 02, 2017

Friday Freestyles


And it's Pay Day!!!

Which means the blinds of my mind are half closed. I learned a LONG time ago that no one should expect me to do much of anything on Pay Day. No sir, no ma'am!

And today is a lucky enough day... I have been passing back and forth corrections with my supervisor. The blinds of his mind seem to be shut, too.

"Lee, I didn't get those corrections for your protocol back," my supervisor said.
"Uh, yeah. I been finish. By the time you get back to your office [in the adjoining building], you will have it."
"I don't have time to check it. I will just pass it on to Dr. D. [our Director].

*ladylee stares... and closes the blinds of her mind ALL the way*


This has been a great week, seeing that I've had a 3 day workweek. Oh, to be able to work like that all the time. That would be such a joy. Someday!

I bought a fantastic salad today. I didn't have it for lunch. I had a burger and cucumber salad from the same place for lunch. I love this place's burger, because they put a ton of veggies on it (cucumbers, carrots, avocado, spinach, cabbage) and it's very light.

But I have never had their salad, tho. Since it's Pay Day, I thought I would SPLURGE. Spend that extra $8 and see what's up. If it's trash, I'd just throw it out.

But uh... this looks pretty good.

That looks good.

Here's a better picture. I placed a pen next to it so you can tell how HUGE it is.

My goodness... that sure looks good. I will NOT be throwing that away.

They have 3 other types of salads. I will be testing those out to. No more burgers for awhile!

Song of the Week/Food for Thought. I think it is a shame how much of the hip-hop music is soaked in drugs. This has been the growing case over the decades, where drug dealers brag about their endeavors.

However something different is happening in the past few years. Rappers are rapping about actually being ON drugs... like molly, percocets, and the like...


I am seeing this in videos now, whenever I am cruising around YouTube. And I saw one the other day that made me go... hmmm...

"Perfect Pints" by Mike Will Made It.

That is a visually stunning video. But I believe it is what drug induced hallucinations would look like.

Hmm. The lesson I learned here: do not take drugs that will make me hallucinate. No thank you.

I am a big fan of Mike-Will-Made-It as a producer, and of course, I love some Kendrick Lamar. I don't like Rae Sremmumd or Gucci Mane. And the song was so-so. It's not anything I would add to a playlist or even go back to listen to again even.

But that video, tho...


There's another "drug-induced" video that's actually a very good social commentary of the state of the drug culture at the moment.

Danny Brown "Ain't It Funny" (Warning: this video is a little disturbing. Don't say I didn't warn you).

Danny Brown is such an odd bird. My male friends like him. I can't get into him because his rapping voice is way too annoying (although him rapping in his normal voice is pretty good, but I understand he is trying to distinguish himself from others). However, he makes some good experimental rap music, and I liked his last CD Atrocity Exhibition. It was a thought provoking listen.

But this video... it symbolizes a cry for help, yet everyone views his cries as entertainment. And that is not a good thing.

And that made me think. Just say no.

(I think my song of the week discussion  was a partial food-for-thought piece!)

That is it for me. I MAY attend a workshop tomorrow, but I STRUGGLE with anything that occurs on a Friday night or a Saturday morning.  I have NO idea what to do about that. I may just have to start getting up on the weekend at the same time I get up on weekdays. And if I want to do something on Friday nights, I may have to change my work schedule. I don't know. I just know it bothers me.  And there is a good solution to the problem.

I am looking forward to having a good weekend anyway!

You do the same.

On Purpose.

Thursday, June 01, 2017



I had a strange shaped pasta last month for the first time. It's called RADIATORE.

I purchased it at my local farmers market. I think I bought a pound of freshly made radiatore for $2.50.

That was some GOOD pasta. And it holds the sauce just right. I had it with tomato sauce, and I had it with pesto sauce. A little goes a long way.  I thought it would  go bad on me after 3 or 4 weeks in  the fridge, but it didn't.  I wish they would sell it in smaller amounts, though. I needed to make sure I ate it all before it went bad.

I am not a big fan of regular pasta, so let's just say that I have been on the look out for a sweet potato or butternut squash version. I've seen such veggie versions in other pasta types, but not this one.

So I wondered how hard it would be to make it myself. I looked around on YouTube for a tutorial. Here's something I came across:

Uh no. That's a bit too much going on. And unless I'm making pasta DAILY for a whole clan of people, it's just not going to happen.

Although this pasta machine looks pretty dope.

That is interesting. Still, we better be eating pasta all the time to get down with that.

I will just continue to be on the lookout for veggie radiatore.

That's simple enough to do...

And cheaper.

Wednesday, May 31, 2017

Semi-Wordless Wednesday

I was out in the far northeastern suburbs, and I came across this gas station.

Gulf gas station. This place was very common in Atlanta in the 70's.

I haven't seen one since I was 6 or 7 years old. So shocked to see one is still around.

Friday, May 26, 2017

Friday Freestyles

It is Friday!

And on top of that, it's a 3 day weekend.

Well for me... it's a FOUR day weekend, as I do have Monday AND Tuesday off.


I have much to do around the house. But the outside of the house looks a bit spiffy, as the grass was cut and the hedges were trimmed.

(My bushes look a bit suspect. They remind me of the asymmetrical hip girl's haircuts of the eighties. Hmm).

I think I need to wash down my front porch, free it of the pollen dust. I will spend no more than thirty minutes on that.

What I really want to do is prop a sign up in the bushes that states "No my house is not for sale. Take ya'lls azzes back to Alpharetta."

I got a letter in the mail from a realtor that owns a house on another street. Apparently, she has rented it out to some fellow name "Tommy". And the letter states, "You know Tommy, don't you? He walks his dog."

No I don't know Tommy. And a lot of people walk their dogs.

And my house is not for sale. Now SCAT.


Gentrification... When white folks do things in the spirit of Christopher Columbus, calling themselves discovering what was already.


Magic Shoes, Part II. So I jammed my toe a few weeks ago, and it's still in the healing stage. The swelling has gone down considerably, but I still can't wear regular sneakers. (As a matter of fact, I looked for my white pair of nikes. They are gone, and I can't find them. And that is fine by me. For now.

So for now, I am rolling with some cheap mesh sneakers.

They are a size too big, but they have memory foam and they are not harsh on my feet.
They don't match much of anything, but this Oldgirl is trying to heal.

I've jammed my little toe and my big toe in the past, but never a toe in between those. I want it to hurry and heal! I am feeling a bit incapacitated. I can get around, but if some mess jump off, I won't be able to get out of dodge quick enough. And we can't have that can we.

No we cannot.

That is it for my Friday Freestyles. I have a song of the week, but it is not on Youtube. Sigh.

Lots of good things planned for the weekend. Hope to get it allllll done.

On purpose.

Have a great holiday weekend!