Monday, July 09, 2012

Monday Night Special

Well it has been a most interesting Monday.

And it is STILL hot outside. Thank goodness it's not in the 100s.

My weekend. This was a very quiet weekend. Not sure what is up with that. I did my normal things: crochet, chores, yack on the phone, writing, etc. I went and picked up some meds that the pharmacy has been hounding me to come and get. Goodness. I wasn't even sure what I was to pick up. Didn't need what they had right now, so I just put it all up.

I watched a good movie.

It was good. I don't want to watch it again, though. I thought the HBO version that came out years ago was MUCH better. But it was good.

Thoughts on today...  I didn't go to work today, even though I meant to. I had these grandiose dreams of working from 6 to 10 a.m., then getting off and taking Grandma to her doctor appointment.

It didn't work out that way. For some ODD reason I didn't go to sleep until 5 in the morning. Then I slept until 9, then went and picked her up for her 11:30 appointment.

I did very well this time. I made sure she had her glasses, her keys and whatever else she needed. So I did well with that. We made it on time to her appointment with time to spare. The doctor looked at her and saw there were still problems after taking meds for three weeks. So further work had to be done...

And it wasn't covered by insurance.

Ugh. Talk about being blindsided. I didn't even ask her if she had the money for it.

So... I had to come out of pocket with some money. I blinked back tears on that one. I was a O_O for all of 2 or 3 minutes as I sat down with Grandma and explained the surgical procedure to her word by word, and made sure she signed a few things.

But I just wasn't prepared to come out of pocket. And it was a good thing that it was sudden, so I didn't have a chance to sit and think and think and think on it. It wasn't expensive, but it put a small setback to some personal goals I had set for myself later this summer/early fall. So I just have to be a little more vigilant in a couple of areas moneywise. And that is fine.

She felt bad about it, which had me a little O_o. Not her fault. We had a little talk about how she should make sure that her doctors only refer her to someone who accepts medicaid/medicare. We talked about other things on her mind. Like my Uncle not wanting to help out, yet gets mad when others help her (I haven't had any run-ins with him concerning this. We can go toe to toe on that one, and I think he knows that). I told her, I have the liberty to take off from work and help out. I also have ample finances to help out, even though I have my own things I have to do.

I am a little different from others. The mantra is sow seed now. While life is good. That is all.

I dropped her off at home and went and took care of her prescription and brought it back to her.

I will call and see how she is doing. The doctor said she would have a little pain, but she seemed to be her same TALKATIVE self alll the way to her house, lol.

You know what has been on my mind though? Just being thankful that I am able to help. I am a bit estranged from my family. Seeing me at any event is like seeing a UFO. So I am thankful that I can be consistently and willingly helpful in some small facet. I am very much known for not tolerating a bunch of mess, family or otherwise. For others it is a matter of just dealing. For me it is a matter of choice, and it's on me if I allow folks to stress me out OR if I'm stressing folks out.

So anytime something directly opposite happens, where I am being a blessing... well, I'm always thankful for those moments. Always. That's what I thought about while waiting for Grandma in the waiting room. No more tears here. Only smiles and thanksgiving.

Quote of the week. I heard something interesting about courage yesterday.

"Courage is the power to let go of the familiar... It is the ability to step out and move forward even if you're afraid." 

I think much about courage... and how I need much more of it in my life.

Song of week. We have big speakers hooked up to the computer in the lab, and I also like to hook them up to my cell phone and listen to Pandora. A song I really love came on, and I was singing hard (annoying those around me).

I love this song by the Average White band.

That is it for me. I am looking forward to having a good good week. I hope you are too!

1 comment:

  1. Last weekend's sermon was on courage and I have been reflecting on it ever since.


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