For my best friend in my head, reader Lisa B., who is my personal psychotherapist, and lover of LadyLee food-for-thought.
Here's a good quote. I am not sure where I got this from, but it is written on a strip of paper I found while cleaning out a purse.
You don't believe me? Here you go...
But here's the quote:
Don't allow the shadows of the past to disqualify you from the greatness of your future. Stop condemning yourself over your past secrets and failures.
Now that is a good one.
You know, I've always wondered what it would be like to wake up and not remember all the messed up stuff I did yesterday or in years past.
Another way to ask that question, and one I've read a book on some 15 years ago... What would I do if there was no fear.
Because the shadows of the past, the secrets, and failures of the past... they are all bundled up warmly in fear, you know.
And fear paralyzes.
Just a thought.
You know, I'm always amazed at something, even within my ownself:
Me and all the people I associate with have such amazing long lists of accomplishments. Long long lists. We should be able to recite those loudly and proudly.
But it's those doggone internal secrets and failures that always seem to crop up and get the limelight. They seem to always occupy the front row of our minds, center stage even. Why is that?
Personally I think we are trained in that type of "stinking thinking". It's a subtle thing, but true nevertheless.
Because think about it... what do we see and hear in our music and television programming, etc?
Much of it is steeped in negativity. I read in a book that stated how we are constantly bombarded with negative imagery from our media, yet we don't even realize it. However, it does affect how we feel about ourselves and our abilities. I find that interesting.
Maybe it's just me seeing that. But I also find it quite peculiar that people who go without tv, etc., for a period of time have an overall increase in the quality of their lives. Is it just me seeing that?
All I know I make sure to not surround myself with people who will not hold my past up to my face and judge me by it. And that is difficult in this "gotcha" society these days.
For everything now seems to be about exposing people's secrets and failures... and all those skeletons that lurk in the dark shadows of the past.
Ha Ha, gotcha... I found out your secret!
Ha, Ha, gotcha... you failed at what you were trying to do.
(Now I get to talk about and laugh at you. Sigh).
When the truth is that we have all had secrets. We have all failed at something.
We can't move forward whilst constantly looking over our shoulders at our dark shadows and at that secret thing or that particular failure.
At least that is what I tell myself when I look at my own. It's almost like looking at the sun. Or a train wreck. I know I'm not suppose to look, but...
I know I have this dream in my heart, but, but, but... What about what happen last time I tried that? Sigh
I'm not sure I can ever get away from the residue left behind from those dark and questionable areas of my past. But I sure know that I don't have to focus on them. I'd rather focus on my long laundry list of accomplishments, epiphanies, and achievements instead.
And my list is long... It's dragging on the ground.
Long enough to cover the shadows of the past.
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