(click here for Part 1: Monday Morning Randomness: Who's Pouring in Your Spirit Today?)
Continued from Part 1
I'm still trying to get you to ponder that question:
Who's pouring into your spirit today?
Are you even concerned about who is pouring into your spirit?
Don't answer that just yet. Just ponder.
Blog and Post of the Week. There were a lot of them, but it comes from a blog on which I lurk constantly: Lovebabz: A Life in Transition.
The specific post title- Believe Them When They Tell You Who They Are.
Quote: "I have decided to accept folks as they come into my life. But at the same time I also have to be more discerning and truthful in who I choose to spend my precious time with. What I hear from a Man has to also be in tuned to what I see in the Man. He can't say on thing and do another. Well he could, but then I have to be truthful and honest and courageous enough to say this is not what I want and keep it moving. To do anything else is saying I do not believe my soul mate is out there, so therefore I am going to settle for what's in my face. So therein lies the rub, knowing in my heart and soul that someone is not right for ME. No matter how much I like them, they are saying with their actions I AM NOT THE ONE! So why am I trying to make myself more available to someone who has already said in action and deeds his feelings? Because I am not being truthful, or honest with what I know. I want what I know not to be truth and if I just hang in and keep telling myself that what I feel, and see and hear is not what I see, feel and hear then happiness will surely be mine. Somehow I will get what I want. Which is so not true."
If that didn't blow your mind in 10 different directions, then you are just... not alive or something. I didn't even know what to pull out of that post. I just yanked a whole paragraph. It's too much GOOD stuff in there. Too much REAL TALK.
Lovebabz, who is 45, broke down in one simple post, many of our problems with failed relationships. I am 38 years old. I WISH someone would've gotten in my face and broken all that she said in that post down to me. I mean, cut my head open, shove it in and make me memorize it. She responded in her comment section to me:
Ahh I didn't know this shit when I was 24or 25. I know it at 45!
And I know it at age 38. Shoot.
Hear me now, believe me later. Young girls, and Oldgirls, go read that. The whole thing. Print it out and place it on your bathroom mirror. Ponder it as you brush yor teeth and put on your makeup.
I promise you, right here now, if you give ear to that post, I mean REALLY listen to what she is saying, then filter your choices through that? You will save yourself a whole lot of trouble when it comes to dealing with men who are NOT worthy of you.
Hear me now, believe me later.
Lovebabz, you rocked the house all last week with hard core REAL TALK. I swear, some of what you shared last week had me teary-eyed. Thanks for that. This Oldgirl needed that.
Best Thing I wrote last week: Getting back to that INTENSE email thread session me and Serenity had on Friday evening. (LBeezy, where were YOU at? This was some hot-headed screeching fireside chat we got over into! Call ya girl!)
Anyway, best thing I wrote, in an email to her, after I opened a Book of Cuss on her (lol):
"I am more important than the Queen of England and all her predecessors, and ANY man will be increased by my presence in his life. I don't have to put up with anything that is a discomfort to me. That's just how important I am. God love me so doggone much that I have INFINITE numbers of chances. INFINITE."
And I say that with the HEAVY foot stomp. I stake my Ph.D. on that one. Hell, let me just say it: I stake my life on that one.
Tell me something... What do you believe about YOURSELF today?
No, no NO! I ain't talking about what OTHERS say about you, and you ingesting that and accepting that as what YOU are SUPPOSE to believe about yourself. N'awl Man!!
But take stock right now, and answer the question on the REAL...
What do YOU believe about YOURSELF today?
Go head on, leave it in the comments, because I want to hear what you have to say?
Enlighten LadyLee today. You fellas, you too, Terry and 2nd 68, if you feel like it. Heck, folk too shy to leave a comment and toot their own horn, hit me up with a email. I'll give you my email address.
oldgirl_1@earthlink.net
Uh, that's oldgirl_1 above. Don't forget the underscore.
I double dog Dino Scooby Doo dare you to let me know what you believe about yourself TODAY. I ain't gonna judge you, I will never say, that ain't right. Shoot, I APPLAUD you in advance for believing in yourself.
Because I DOUBT anyone can come up with something as pompous and arrogant as what I wrote above.
LOL!
I think that shut down our conversation, didn't Serenity? It was a great conversation, chick. I learned more and got more out of it for myself than you did I bet.
You see, I'm like this: I ask A BUNCH of question. I haven't formed an opinion or anything, don't like judging people and if you just stupid or crazy on purpose, we ain't even having conversations in the first place.
I'm more important than the Queen of England and you're not even allowed in my courts to even have the priviledge of having a conversation with me, baby. Take and sell your bullshit elsewhere.
('Scuse my language).
Sorry. Someone will escort you out of Dr. LadyLee's presence.
*LadyLee points at the door with her platinum diamond encrusted scepter.*
Thank goodness I wasn't sitting next to my pal Serenity, or I would have tackled and pummeled her. I think she knew that, and was privately relieved that she was sitting in her own cubicle faaaaaaaar, far away up in North Carolina.
The drive is only 3 hours away though. Watch your back, Serenity. Watch OUT.
LOL!
It was nice to hear from her this morning... "LadyLee, I wrote that on a notecard, and placed it on a bathroom mirror this morning."
You want to use what I said above, then use it. You can replace "The Queen of England" with Beyonce, whoever you deem so incredibly important in this world. (Thoughts of Southern Black Gal, you can replace it with Lil' Wayne. LOL!!)
Say THAT to yourself while you brushing your teeth in the morning.
For the rest of year.
And watch how you react with some sucka you dealing with act a jack. Watch what rise up out of the seat of your soul.
"Whoa, hold up Shorty. Pump the brakes, hold up. Let me tell you something, I'm IMPORTANT, BLAH, BLAH, BLAAAAAAH!!!!
Have a weak man or a man not worthy of you tip-toeing out the door fast. Real FAST.
Sidenote: I heard a neighbor of mine completely SNAP on a dude using some Bible scripture. I mean SNAP... Mutha***** No weapon against me will prosper, blah, blah, blah... I mean she bust this joker so hard that he was just SPEECHLESS. I don't know what he did to her, as they were behind their apartment door, and I had no knowlege of stuff. But I remember standing at my front door in the hall for 10 minutes, with my key in my hand, shaking in my shoes. That chick read her bible and knew her worth, but she also happen to have a shovel handy to dig up a Book of Cuss. DANG!
I would see dude, and just shake my head. He had that scared look in his eye. I wanted to say, you need to be scared, bruh. You really do.
Anyway, good for you, S. Glad that you wrote the Queen of England quote up on your mirror.
Now go, and continue to grow.
Can I ask you another question, because I am full of something.
What do you say to yourself to build yourself up? What rises up out of you when adversity comes your way?
Hmmm.... answer that question.
I'm looking for things to put up on my bathroom mirror, things to ponder while I brush my teeth in the mornings and before I go to bed...
...to be continued.
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Dang Lee! You got me digging way down into my soul. But I ain't made at ya (just finished listening to Tupac). Lovebabz too. She has a new reader. Her post hit me like a ton of bricks. I'm 30 and she just broke it down for me. If she was next to me I would hug her. But here's a cyberspace hug. (((HUG))) I said in the last post, I was probably going to be writing down one of your quotes. The Queen of England quote written down right after I read it. What do I believe in myself? I believe in myself that I am a phenomenal woman! Where are you getting that I worship Lil Wayne? Lol.
ReplyDeleteSister Laldylee,
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing my post with your readers. I am amazed anyone finds anything I have to say worthwhile. I am becoming the woman of my dreams and I do so appreciate all the lovely folks I ammeeting in my travels!
You Sister are a GEM!
What do I believe about me today?
ReplyDeleteI know that I am a good person who genuinely cares about others. I know this because I keep coming back to you all. Just to keep up and see what YOU got going and if you need me to help you keep going (as I can).
I knew this yesterday.
I knew this last week.
I knew this last month, year, decade...
I shall continue to keep the streak going tomorrow and the days, weeks, months, years, decades, centuries, millenia and eons going forward. Even if I should slip slightly along the way...
What do you say to yourself to build yourself up? What rises up out of you when adversity comes your way?
Something like this:
Fuck this bullshit! (yeah I been profane as long as you been here...) This is some low and base ass shit that shall not drag me down. I have a much greater destiny than this unimportant crap. I need to step over and move on. I must rise above if I am to be worthy of continued existence!!!
Or I will consult The Get List which sits next to me behind glass right next to my computer.
"What rises up out of you when adversity comes your way?"
ReplyDeletePsalm 20:7 "Some trust in chariots, and some in horses; But we will remember the name of the Lord our God."
No matter what it looks like God has my back and I will call on Him!
Life Application Study Bible: David knew that trust should be placed in the Lord more than human power. David knew that true might of his nation was not weaponry but worship, not firepower but God's power. Because God alone can preserve a nation or an individual. Be sure your confidence is in God who gives eternal victory. Who do you trust?
what do I believe about myself today?
ReplyDeleteThat I am worth being treasured
That I continuously try to do the right thing
That I have a wonderful spirit!
That I can achieve anything I put my mind to!
That I am loved!
That I a work in progress!
That u guys truly pour into my spirit in a positive way!
What do I say to build myself back up or to rise against adversity?
I pray, and ask God to lift my spirits! And he tells me that trouble doesn't last always! He blesses me on the regular and because we are click tight he see's me through!
Plus also my family, there always there for me! Couldn't ask for a betta group of folks!!!